I miss you…

I miss your touch

I miss feeling desired

I miss giving away control

I miss having help with Janelle

I miss connecting with another soul

I miss feeling love from a man

Today, I miss Fatmac specifically and I know why. Janelle is turning 10, there are still obstacles we were fighting together that I have to finish alone, and life continues to give me high level experiences.

Instead of the grief reaching the pit of my stomach, I take a moment and assess my sadness. I try and think about how I will communicate these feelings to my future love. I think about how I can comfort myself.

I think

I breathe

I journal it out

I surrender to the feeling, I’m patient with my feelings, I filter out the real, and now I’m left with the present. I’m left with what needs extra self love.

Now,I know how to ask my future mate for help. I know how to say, hug me tighter today. I know how to say I want some extra attention. I also know how to say…I’m not myself and I’m sorry.

I’m Paris Vaughan

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

The mom behind : http://www.dontbejellyllc.com