A Hug From Heaven

1/11/2020: @donniwiggins_ posted about her original IG page being disabled

@dontbejelly_llc did not exist

_parisvaughan – Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager posted that the weather would not stop my workout. I pushed on.

I took Janelle to a BDAY party at Cloth & Glaze Painting

I was working for her all day… I posted on my story 13 times

Saturday Night…It looks like I went outside. Not out…outside

Today, I applied for a job and asked to start on 1/11/23

It’s the hugs from heaven from me

You’re Building Pressure

It’s been 1 year, 1 month and 30 days since August 24, 2021.

That’s 1.164 Years

That’s 13.943 Months

That’s 60.714 Weeks

That’s 425 Days

That’s 10,200 Hours 

However, today at 5:34 am on 10/24/22

It’s been all that time and today I didn’t remember until typing this about how the 24th of every month use to kill me.

For the first time during my workout- The PAris workout, I bent to stretch and I could hear him say…you better get to that goal baby yasssss… I miss my hype man, but today I laughed. A genuine laugh

It’s not coincidence that yesterday I listen to April Daniel’s talk about how she is 3 years after her losing her husband. I felt so hopeful.

Today! Whatever your pain, joy, or journey is…don’t stop. All those good choices are building pressure!

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

Paris Vaughan

#LLFATMAC

The love of my life. Oh and he knew I needed his entire family. It’s been alllll those days and they are still here. They’ll even be here this WKND! They got me and I got them! He always told me, he had it handled. Whewww thanks for the hug babe 💙

My subconscious is safe!

My subconscious is safe!

I listened to a podcast that said we stop being sponges around the age of 7 or 8. My daughter is 9 and I automatically did a replay of her first 8 years.

Dammmyyyyyy! It’s filled with grief, anxiety, abandonment, change, and more.

Before I went into mommy failure mode, I started to think of everything I’ve done and am doing to heal my subconscious mind so that I can continue to pour into my daughter. It’s not too late!

Detach from the outcome of things… our dreams are too big to really hold all of that desire.

Start big and then make small steps forward

There will be disappointment… embrace it!

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444

One of my favorite- “Get your ISH TOGETHER PARIS”  You know…when you feel yourself spiraling. Just me?

What do I have to do in the next 4 seconds, 4 minutes, 4 hours? Get fancy and add 4 weeks….. I just know that I can chill and just worry about the minute I am in and the 3 minutes ahead versus trying to solve it all.

444-

What does 444 mean?

444 is a sign that one should keep faith and that the angels are watching over one. They have taken it on themselves to guide one to a brighter future. If one sees this number, especially if it recurs, it is an indication that one should give up all doubts on issues related to ambitions and act decisively

Definitions for these….coming soon

#mommieslovebedtime

#parentsbehindthedreams

#bragsisbrag

2nd Birthday Without You

Covid, cancer, and suicide aged me.

37 – How did we get here? I just forced myself to remember the year of 36….I instantly started a mental list of what I needed to continue to work on in this new year…but maybe the tears or me remembering to breathe before I went into a full melt down….reminded me of all that’s happened in the last year.

This is the part when I wanted to list them, but honestly…..I mid- key feel like it’s the

2nd birthday without my Mac Bear

This week just feels off, I don’t feel like a birthday girl, which started off with me just not being interested in having birthday plans.

I could feel his absence like it was fresh starting Monday. Saturday and Sunday he flooded my dreams and I can’t help but to think about how different things would be if he were here.

I would most likely already have plans made via him and I wouldn’t feel this huge emptiness that I can’t put into words.

I am happy that even though I can’t breathe ( from crying) , eyes burning, nose is done- but I’ve remembered to breathe before losing it all. 9/19/22- 11:02pm – 3 🙄 we got this…

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

Acts of Service

I took the love language quiz AGAIN, because I’ve been wanting to plan a self love challenge dare.

I wanted to be intentional with my self love, so that I can learn when and how to refill my love energy. I’m also very intrigued with how trauma of any kind impacts how we respond to things

I highly recommend The Body Keeps the Score.

I can’t give love from a empty or broken cup. My example I love to give is… everything is just like on the plane! Give yourself oxygen 1st and then do all that you can for others.

My highest score was Acts of Service

Today mom walks in and says….Hey, I’ll pick up Janelle from school today for you.

Everything is energy and honey Bernice wa talking my language. Thank you

Align your mind to the desires of your heart

I Thought you should know

Today is be on purpose day.

I know these random days to help with Janelle’s marketing, but this holiday will be saved and repeated.

Today on purpose I woke up early… I haven’t been able to read like I plan so I had to add more “awake” time 😩😳💪🏽

I’m also working purposely on my subconscious health

What do I need to release?

I release guilt aka worry

I release the guilt and worry of thinking I’m not doing the right thing

I release the guilt of unfinished conversations

I release the guilt and worry of the past

I release the guilt of rushing sadness

I release the worry on controlling the future

What else will I do on purpose today to make this holiday mean more next year?

Be on Purpose today

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

Paris Vaughan

I just thought you should know……

Restless….that would be the word to describe how I felt coming into the new year. First, it took forever to get to midnight, I swear 10pm came twice.

I’ve been working really hard on being intentional, thoughtful, and BEING!  What does it feel like to BE Happy, to LOOK Happy, To FEEL Happy?!!

In 2021 protecting my peace became a necessity for survival. My body, my spirit, the world, and my mind were working hard against me, so I had to choose to want different. I was exposed to a lot in 2021.

In 2022…. I have to limit my dreams of 2023 and enjoy what is now only day 2 of 2022. I just know the fruits of a lot of labor will be even more fruitful in 2023.  2022 is going to be a hard year, hard work, hard conversations, hard learnings, and more. In 2020…I said I would stay ready so I didn’t have to get ready…but I was never ready!

My foundation is not stable, so 2022 is all about my subconscious wellbeing.  What is it like BE, to BE living in my dreams, to BE waking up to my manifestations fulfilled.

I want to journal more, it’s my commitment to continue my promise of Living, Learning, and Loving out loud.

Life comes at you fast!  Yesterday, I let it wash over me, but not consume.  I celebrated a soon to be niece, I cried of love lost, I cried about things I can’t controlled, I took naps, I cleaned, I enjoyed the moment, and I DREAMED.

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

Paris Vaughan

It is truly better to have loved

As I often sit and think about you for hrs and hrs I realize more and more that you were preparing me for this.

“The goal was never to hurt you, only show you what you deserve.” – MacBear

I could agree….I can be a bit emotionally unavailable, but it is not without justification.

You loved me beyond my mean, beyond my pain, and into growth.

Listening to this song, I wish you could hear it! We realized what we had was rare and we made sure to not take moments for granted.

The standard is set, he completed the mission of showing me what I deserve.

We had plans…

Hrs and Hrs…. When I met you, I knew this was it. Rest in my love. #LLFATMAC

Your Favorite Healthy Hustling Momager

My story is someone’s survival guide.

The lesson repeats until learned….

I’ve become obsessed with trying my best in every moment and every other moment I learn that I’m not really doing what I WANT my best to be.

If your insides are saying you’re not doing enough….listen

Don’t fake self accountability

Health
Relationships
Work
Conversations
Rest
Cleaning
Getting dressed
Parenting

Show up genuinely as the person you want to be in everything you do.